Completely random

Why does one wake up at 5:00 am, and begin to go through their Junior high, and Senior high yearbooks? I'll tell ya because they are crazy. Because they forgot they hated how they looked back then. Because they missed some old friends they haven't kept up with as much as they might have liked. Because they were complled to remember all of the funny and very nice things people have said to them in the past. Because, they look at their CD year book and think wow technology back in 1997 (for our first CD year book) was really lame compareed to today. More importantly, looking back on things is a good way to gage yourself today in comparison. Needed to remember that perhaps. Then again, who knows why?

-J

Lost... a testimonial

Perhaps, this is a recurring theme. I have definitely felt this way before. CYT today, 2 shows, the usual bruises and scratches working backstage. The usual recognition and wishing things could run better. But, that isn't really where this story begins. Go back say 5 years to see the beginnings. I had the white escort still, no debts, ambition, an honors student, "a life of great potential". I had even traveled a little. Ended up landing a few leads in plays since then, passed some AP tests, Worked in new accounts at a Bank, performed on stage at Disneyland in some small shows, Directed several shows, produced five, started a production company, and now Working at best buy... still not finished with school, lost in direction. Changed much, have I? Or is what you see the same naivete in me? Slightly optimistic, or tentative with every step? Everyone says "You shouldn't compare your self to others you always come out short"... but how can we not compare to our piers... because they are doing the things you wish you could do.... and you think why are you where you are? We all have different circumstances of life, and obstacles in the way. But don't you feel like you could be doing more... I do. Do you feel like you should be somewhere else? When you look back even knowing you haven't completely wasted your time... maybe I have lofty goals for myself, or perhaps I truly do have short comings...

-J

Turn on the fun

So working for this and that really makes me wish I still worked here just because it is so much more fun to tell stories all day, play improv games with audiences and sword fight captain hook. Heck after seeing how much I have been making recently... though the money is good, the 13.00 hr plus Bonuses at this place seems a lot more appealing, that and you get a whole lot more respect from people that and then maybe I wouldn't work with sooo many well... umm slackerish uneducated types. No and its not the peeps that I work with directly its all the scary 28 yearolds that are still working in retal and on the sales floor. Anyway, miuns 1000 karma points and I should be gettin' fired any day now. Comments....?!

-J

DOWNLOAD THIS

All of you still using other programs or Windows Media you need to get this. Disregard your predisposition to windows and all that fun faulty software. I have been using it for a good month now. It's worth it. So sack the Win AMP, Music Match, and Windows Media and go with Itunes

-J

Gullible its NOT in the dictionary.

So many of you my loyal readers... fell for the last b-log. Don't worry your secrets are safe with me. That, and I knew most of the information you shared anyway. I had to fall for that one first too. This weekend has been an event and the next week is not my friend. "Anne of Green Gables" opened this last firday, the show did come together. I know there is a lot more that could have been done with the show. Part of it is my fault for not being avalible... but I figured it was time for someone else to take the reigns and lead. I am trying to silently step away... but I know I will be back. Work this weekend was interesting. Everyone seems to be planning the next party at my place. A good thing for sure... the last party was the bomb ya'll. Then thanks to Nate for one of the nicest conversations I have had in a long time walking around "old encinitas" it was fun. So the last few days have been busy. This next week is what scares me...

8 CYT shows

Working 6 - 8 hours a day until friday

Philosophy essays

Production Company todo's

and Planning for Robyns Party (21st baby!)
So it should be fun, a lot of work and a good time for all. Gimma a holla folks.

-J