Its an empty space between the good and bad... but time enough to lay to waste every certainty I had.
Have you ever seen someone so involved, and invested in happiness that it made you sick at fist, as is everyone’s gut reaction at least if you aren't there as well. Think about that for a moment, and then just realize how terrible desperate you have become. And in the words of PARIS HILTON "... don’t be desperate" none of us should ever be desperate, because no matter if you do or don't have a "special someone" there are always people out there who have your back. Scott and Justin (though I haven’t meet Scott yet) you peeps are got me for sure, so least in friendship. That seems to be what my life has been made up of lately. Lot's of new friends and so much important good time with the old ones. Like wine, friendship gets better with age, it ripens, gains depth, it's more intoxicating, rare, and you are always saving it for a very special occasion, eventually you end up willing to spend great amounts of money for it, the fewer and fewer times you get to have it the more you want it... and at the end of your life your drinking vintage. Sometimes, I can't help but think life should be called a Holiday i.e. "This Holiday Life". Despite all the apparent injustice, in consistency, shits, giggles, tantrums, accidents, deaths, births and substance(s) time keeps moving we keep living and dieing. It's not that bad, Always Wear your sunscreen okay Kids? Poof! I'm done.
-J
